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7-11 thoughts amidst the stream beep bop boop bam
Here we are friends, back with another episode of the critically acclaimed 7-11 thoughts, inspired by the wordplay of 7-11, minus the commitment of writing a full-blow essay.
But with Nigo partnering with Family Mart, I might have to rethink the title.
Whatever the case maybe, or naming convention of these series ends up being, please remember to -
Enjoy!
During my last therapy session, my therapist made the comment, “You’re in a really cool place.” In hindsight, gosh I’d hope so, we’ve been at this for years, but silencing that judgment of needing to be anywhere but here + now in the moment, I’d agree. There’s a different level of awareness that I find helping me make it through each day. When I wrote in 2019, “I am at ease with my unease until I am not.” I meant that and understood what it meant meaning that there could come a time and place where the unease was no longer something to carry without seeking helping because walking in the dark without it could be the difference between walking the wide road and stepping off a cliff face.
I was quoted for the first time in HONOLULU Magazine. I have to shout this out for a couple reasons: 1) It gave me the opportunity to pay homage to someone who has been a light in my life and so generous in sharing what he has called ‘ike bombs at different times in my journey, John ‘Prime’ Hina; 2) At work we’re working on a pretty cool project, and PR, while I might be functional, is not my core specialty, and I’m grateful for the platform, because I do believe how needed it is to mālama honua and each other; 3) I’m not so lowkey fascintated by the storytelling potential in fashion; 4) It took us a couple of years to get to this point. 5) And ultimately, I’m just really grateful to still be on the journey.
We had to take #TheKittyHendrixExperience to the ER last week. YG 4Hunnid dollars later as a result of a fever, nausea, back pain and that magic of some fluids and pain meds and the little, very round guy is definitely feeling better. But this is a safe space, and we have to be honest and point out how sad it is to watch our three older fur babies slow down. Sure, we have our bundle of energy in Kobe Curry Uso (YEET!), the realist in me knows that just like everything else, lives do not last, and change is inevitable…
That said, as we approach the 5th year since Dad passed, perhaps my senses are a little heightened as I think about what that means and how life’s been in the time since. TBH, it’s hard to believe that much time has passed and life has gone on as evidenced by all the personal and world events which have occurred.
In some ways, how the feeling of it feels, is simultaneously both heavier and lighter. Heavier because the sadness of it just exists. I wouldn’t say it lingers but it’s definitely always there and it’s lighter because I’ve had to learn to adjust and carry it.
I guess that’s the dance with grief, sometimes you lead and othertimes it leads as you dance along to the melodies of each new season.
Along with that, I’m due for surgery next week. An experience I’m not looking the least bit forward to. It’s been amazing to watch the thought experiments and mini-movies that my mind has conjured up. And as creative as all that has been, this is going to be as it is.
Believe it or not, one of the massive a-ha’s that I’ve had in the last couple of weeks is that I’m a writer. You’re probably thinking, well obviously, you’ve written (and written and written) but as an artist, I’ve also tried my hand at developing my visual arts abilities and certainly enjoy multiple mediums. But there’s a different when it comes to writing. I’ve been stuck with really writing and consistently as I needed some time away to really refocus energy and look even deeper within. A part of me has felt like, well, what’s the point, people don’t really read. But TBH, I never wrote before because people read, I wrote because I needed to.
And I know a lot of people do in fact still read, but you know what I mean.While I’ll not walk away from creating other forms of arts, Idk, small kine feels like I’m having an MJ going back to the Bulls moment with writing.
What that means, who knows? Idk completely know but I don’t think I need to know so much as I need just keep on, keepin’ on, feel and Nike was spot on when they coined the phrase: Just do it.
Soul in the words of John Cena:
With that, I’m no longer a subscriber to the idea that we have arrive to a certain time and space, but if I can someday be as cool as Mr. Nakamura-San, I might have to rethink that.
Soul be well!